Well I hit the wall.  It has been a crappy week+, from extreme fights, to losing a friendship, to having to drive 25 minutes to the gym at off hours.  I am losing the will to go on with this journey.  I can't see the end anymore, can't see why i am doing this anymore.  It's damn hard and my body aches in places i didn't know I had.  My mind works against me.   Why did i even listen or give a sh*t about this journey?  There is no reward at the end, no payoff, nothing that matters to me anymore.  I need some words of encouragement, something.  write me (mrwertgumby@aol.com), call me (4694419755), send me a telegram (ask for the address).