It was raining this morning when I went for my walk and
swim. It wasn't that hard cold rain we usually get here in Texas; it was
a soft warm tearful rain. I guess there were so many tears shed last
night in my home and a good friend's that the Angels cried. I got news that a
good friend’s father passed. She said he was in a lot pain so it’s an accepted
blessing; he is now not in pain but in God's loving embrace. I knew her
father when I was a very young man. He
treated me with kindness, patience, and respect.
I know he was one of the smartest men I have had the pleasure of knowing. I didn’t know until recently he trusted me with
one of his most precious treasures, that touched me and made his passing more
meaningful today for me. The news
brought back all the memories of loves ones in my life who have passed, my
sister (Colleen), my brother (Brian), my mother, a childhood friend (Billy
Forbes), and yes, an unborn child (Andrew Thomas) which is the hardest of all
to bear. My heart goes out to anyone who
has lost a loved one. Tina and I cried
for the losses we have endured over these past years that have driven us
apart. We are working on mending that gap,
so bear with me if in the next few months I post odd or incomplete thoughts. At times my heart feels as though it is going
to burst with such sadness that I shake and cry.
I thank God for my Tina, she is my rock right now and I know if we had
had Andrew Thomas my Tina would not be here today to help me on this long
hard journey. I am sorry if I made you cry
but I had to say these words. We each
must bear the weight of losing loved ones; it’s the circle of life as my good
friend said last night. I just hope I
get to see those old friends back in New England. I regret I didn’t keep in touch. I am ashamed of it. I will try to make it up if you will let me
old friends.
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